Hi, hello

How are you all today?

I have nothing else to say, haha!

Kisses and hugs!
Bella

Today...

...I will start editing. When I have edited ALL of the vlogs that I'm behind with, I will start uploading them.

I will also make a little video every day, with my progress.

Of course I will update you here, on my BLOG.

Love you!
Bella

In one month...

CHRISTMAS!

You know what they say, one that waits for something good will never wait too long...

Being reckless

Hi everyone.

I just had a couple of awful, horrible days. Let's see past that and choose to be happy!


Do you know what I feel like sometimes?


I feel like bying stuff on the internet for money that I would never, ever get - all on credit. I would like to buy an apartment for millions of swedish kronor, and get a loan for all of it. I feel like getting a huge tattoo (my dad would hate me for the rest of my life). I feel like going into a store and shoplift. I feel like being reckless. I have been such a "good  girl" for so long and I am tired of waiting for my reward.


And I also feel envy, a lot of it. And here's why:


1. A person I know gets an iPhone, that actually was meant for me, and sells it (because it was stolen) and gets 2 grand for it.


2. The same person gets student contributions, and I don't. BUT - we made the same amount of work and study and he made it and I did not.

3. This person has a lot of money and I have so I barely make it every month

4. He has great friends. And noone wants to be with me.



But you know what? I don't care if people think I'm wierd. Because I will always be me, and if someone doesn't like me when I'm my self - then they are not people who I want to be with.

And also, I will choose to be happy and choose to not care. Because I have my own apartment, I have a computer, I have an awesome mom, I have a great life. I will not have a person named Envy eating me up from the inside.

I can be whatever I want to be.

But I will not buy stuff for money that I don't have. I will not BUY an apartment. I will not get a tattoo (just yet) and I will not shoplift. Only in my dreams where everything is legal.

I have also not vlogged for a long time now, but that is just because I want to force myself to edit. And I will do that. I will be a happier person and I am taking care of my life right now!

I love you all who are actually reading my blog!

New vlogs!

Still going strong on the vegan-food! But today's meal wasn't completely vegan, rater vegetarian. Because I had some "real" cheese and butter in my lasagna and corn because I couldn't find vegcheese and I need to use my butter before it gets bad - and I don't want any animals suffering to be for nothing (which in my mind it would be if I threw away the butter).

I have uploaded three new vlogs, and you can see them underneath here. I have also edited more vlogs, but my internet don't want to upload it, so you have to wait for those.

Hi! My name is Bella and I'm a fake-vegan!

Since NO ONE of you said "happy birthday" the first of november, I'd love if you just watched this documentary instead.

This is serious. I stopped eating meat from the supermarket and I only eat meat or egg or milk from the local farmer. But I'm considering drinking ordinary milk, just because the swedish milkcows are quite healthy (I think!). But I will try to drink soymilk or another replacement before I start drink ordinary milk. So I'm a fake-vegan right now.

Please watch this and share it with your friends. People need to know!